Real with Rue

Halfway through the year I was evaluating my goals and plans and resolutions for the year, I had only accomplished one (bearing in mind they were simple resolutions). I realised I lacked serious discipline in certain areas, particularly self-control. My savings were no where they needed to be, I still had small but damaging habits which could manifest into bigger things that I excused. So, when the 1st September hit I decided to be intentional about my growth and the first step was self control. I was tired of saying things I wanted to do and be, but with no real action behind my voice,

I think one of the most necessary but hardest things I have done is be intentional and accountable. If I wanted to practice self-control in my financial, spiritual and physically being and life I needed to control my thoughts. Ever since that day, the one thing I can confirm is that it is ghetto. In fact, its lonely, I decided to stop entertaining certain relationships which I let off as casual banter, I decided on a social media fast and had to face the hard truth. When you are really honest with yourself about some of the decisions you make, you realise that this really could have been avoided if I had controlled XYZ.

One thing I’ve learnt is old habit die hard. I think you never realise the depth of a bad habit or thing until you face it head on. for example, I can shamefully admit that when I am bored, I will just entertain things that don’t add anything beneficial to my time. Even social media, for me it was consistent 2 minutes every hour or thirty minutes, suddenly your screen time is more than hours you’ve spent sleeping. It is only when you remove something, you realise how much of our time and energy it was taking, and each day I’m just trying to be more intentional with my time and money.

its been real,

Rue x