Real with Rue

What a flipping way to make a living

I wake up, pray, bible plan, shower, get dressed. Then put my wig on, because I can’t even be bothered to even ghost bond that thing anymore. Monday to Friday, five days a week. I work for what feels like 40 days and 40 nights and come home for 3 hours of relaxation, then repeat? I honestly don’t understand how I meant to do this, especially for the next forty years of my life.

Was it the suits, the morning coffee?

When I was at uni I glamorised the 9-5, the corporate outfits, the lattes and the whole vibe of 9-5 seemed so grown and life-put-together. I look now and I think which part of this is glamorous? I personally think my issues with my current 9-5, stems from the fact that I work in a law firm, but not in the role I desire. As for me, that is very painful, and as someone who is such a go getter I think this is 99% root of my issues. I think one thing I do enjoy is the pleasure I have found in my passions such as my blog. However, 9-5 has exposed that I am a not as self confident as I thought. I used to believe I was this confident person, but the opportunity to change roles within the firm and I became nervous of my managers opinion. I had to hype myself up to apply to a different role and put my best intentions forward. when I was at uni, I would scream how I would only look out for me, but its this sense of nervousness I get in order to do what’s best for Rue. I am new to this world, and I am slowly learning to manoeuvre through it.

Choose your hard…

I have friends that are Creatives and It all seems easy, until you hear the hard work, money and time that is put into making content. Honestly, even to be consistent with this blog is a battle I fight everyday to plan and write. I don’t believe there’s any job that’s easy, even look at real housewives and some of them tired they start making businesses because stay at home mum is even tiring.

I remember I kept complaining first two weeks, then my best friend Ruvimbo (the irony I know) asked me would it kill me to be positive. From that conversation, I changed my attitude it genuinely changed my life, the 8 hour day went from feeling like 40 days and 40 nights to 35 days and 35 nights.

I need to stop living in the future and think of the right now, that’s my biggest issue. Sometimes I think so far, that it makes it hard to enjoy the now because I constantly wonder what’s next. For now, that’s all I’m going to do, stay positive and enjoy the now.

its been tiring but real,

Rue xx

ps : An attitude change really does wonders. Who knew?