Real with Rue

The effects of lockdown 3.0

This blog is going to be honest and real about a topic, I don’t really like to talk about publicly . Although, I had to say if I’m going to call this ‘Real with Rue,’ then I have to do just that. TO be honest, your has been feeling very single this pandemic, non of my close friends are in a relationship, and I speak to my friends everyday and every hour, so its not lonliness. I don’t know if it’s lockdown that’s actually made me want a relationship, as it’s far from what I planned for myself this year, and maybe some of you understand.

I just thought we were all single…

My early twenties so far have just been spent in lounge wear at home. So, every week when I see a new relationship, it makes me think 1) where are people meeting people and 2) no matter what, life really does just go on. In all honesty, I think this pandemic has made people, especially me, realise what they want and what they don’t, maybe that’s why some people are breaking up and others are realising that this is the person I want for life.

Lately, every time I log into Instagram, ‘everyone’ is engaged, now married or having a baby. I have no ounce of jealousy in me, but it has made me reflect that I’m getting so much older, to the point where my family ask me about relationships and marriage.

As a final year student, alongside my own personal goals, I decided I would stay single in final year. Little did I know this pandemic would last this long and I cannot lie, it has made me consider that I do want someone in the future and I need to be more open. If you know me, you know how it makes me sick to admit it.

I’m Single not lonely

In all honesty, I am unsure if I want to be in relationship right now, I have a lot going on but after university I do want to meet someone. However, it does not mean I am not going to force it, because I really don’t have any more ‘how many siblings do you have?‘ in me.

I have just been feeling this way over a week, and I believe I am ready to welcome the idea of dating. Even though it’s a pandemic, I have realised that my standards have actually gotten stricter, because I’m stuck at home and I’m irritated when it comes to wasting my time. I really cannot be bothered to entertain worthless conversations, respectfully.

In order to focus on the present, I decided to set a couple of goals during lockdown to keep focused on my goals and ambitions for this year. I do believe in trying to make myself a better person and self-sufficient (with God). For example, I really want to be more serious about my prayer life and I want to flatten my stomach, so every day I walk and pray. I’m also focusing on my hobbies, such as this blog. I also plan on getting my driver’s license and saving A LOT of money, because relationships look expensive these days. 

It’s been real,

Rue x